Saturday, May 2, 2009

Feeling the baby

You know how people can describe what it's like to feel a baby moving inside you and you always think "weird" or "cool" or "huh...."? I'm not even going to TRY to describe it, because I can't do it justice. But that has to be the coolest thing in the whole wide world.

I was sitting at work, writing this post about how I can't "feel" my baby moving around, when out of nowhere Baby Egbert starts swimmin' around in there! I gasped and "oh my gosh!"ed at Aundrea and Karleen, and told them I just felt the baby move. Aundrea didn't believe me, but Karleen backed me up. I cried. They didn't make fun of me. In fact I think they both cried too.

The weird thing was not knowing what to do. Shouldn't something happen now? I didn't dare move because I didn't want it to stop. I looked down at my stomach to watch, but of course didn't see anything. I closed my eyes to try to feel it better, turned off my music and listened. Not that there's anything to hear. Should I say something? Should I do something? I put my hand on my stomach and thought "I love you Baby! Thanks for growing in there." I asked Aundrea and Karleen what I was supposed to do. They laughed with me. I cried some more. And wished there was a way to share that feeling with Josh.

How could he not know what it's like? How can he understand how cool this is? How can he be missing out on something SO HUGE! How do I describe it to him? How to do explain it? How do I involve him in this moment of bonding with Baby?

He called within 10 minutes to tell me he was on his way to pick me up. I told him I just felt the Baby move. He said "that alien in you is moving?"

I told him our baby is NOT A MONSTER!!!! And then he laughed at me. Said "cool." like it was nothing and asked when I'd be ready to go home.

Fortunately Aundrea and Karleen cried with me even though Josh didn't. I love working with them. Do you think they'll fight for custody?

3 comments:

  1. I'm so baby hungry these days, though I don't REALLY want a baby because I know I'd go crazy trying to do that and law school. Oh yeah, and I only work fifteen hours a week, which I don't think is enough for a baby...

    Anyway, the point is, I like this post, and it made me teary-eyed, and I've never felt an alien/baby kick inside me.

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  2. Just wait until Josh can actually feel the baby for himself. He'll be even more excited about it than you are!

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  3. It's a beautiful feeling! Hopefully your baby is nice to you. I used to have to rock Rachel to sleep before I could go to bed (seriously. she was violent). :)

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