Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I know I'm not the only one....

I know I'm not the only one.......but this schedule just seems so incredibly unreasonable that I catch myself feeling like we are the only ones.

I remember thinking the same thing when Tommy was brand new and nobody in this house was sleeping. I'd get up in the middle of the night with him knowing that I was the only human being on the whole planet awake at that time.
And then I'd hear a car drive past. Who drives anywhere at 3am?
Or see someone else update their facebook status.
And then I'd see people around the neighborhood who have older children and I'd know that they did the same thing when their kids were newborns and I just couldn't understand how something so seemingly impossible was so common.

Only now we get up at 5:30 to start our days and I see other people pulling out of their garages already. And more than 1 light is on in the neighborhood. I KNOW there are other people who wake up earlier than us, but it just seems so impossibly unreasonable that it CAN'T be common.

Josh comes home, eats dinner with us and studies for the rest of the night and I think it's insane to imagine all of these people who come home and do more work/school/life once they're finished with whatever work/school/life they just came home from.

But then I have this image in my head of my older brother sitting at a desk in the basement of his little old house in Logan. It was dark, and the home was old so it had really low ceilings. He had a lamp on and his glasses (he normally wears contacts) and he had probably been sitting there pouring over his textbooks for more hours than I had even been alive. I bet his eyes were bleeding from having read so much.
I know we're not the only ones who have this stupid "study your brains out every day" schedule. And I know other people have lived through it. And I know a LOT of people who have degrees and clearly they're still alive.

I just start thinking that we have zero free time and I'll never see Josh again and "gee isn't it nice of that strange man to pay the mortgage for 2 humans he will barely know in a year?" when he stops what he's doing to read scriptures and have Family Home Evening with us.

So I know we're not the only ones doing work, school, church and family. But some things just seem so stupid that you convince yourself you're the only one dumb enough to sign up for it all.

I guess it's nice to know we're not alone and that people do survive the madness.


  1. i hear ya. but i think you're crazy for waking up at 5:30.

    also, i'm glad you want to walk today because we are one of those "other" human beings with that "fun" schedule like you. luke won't be home tonight until 10. :( it's nice to have something to do. thanks!

  2. Hey Amy! Hope you don't mind that I found your blog! I'm excited that I did, because then I know Matt & I aren't the only ones doing this! It sure does feel like it sometimes! Let me know if you ever need someone to help you get through it!

  3. Hang in there, Amy! We made it through the basement in Logan! Sometimes we even miss it. Go figure!! WE LOVE YOU!

  4. I hear ya, Amy! We just found out last week that James passed the CPA exam. This is the first time in our 7 years of marriage that he isn't studying after he comes home from a full day at work...and don't even get me started on what that's like during tax season!
    We survived and you will too! But in the meantime...it just really does suck.


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