Test Results

They called back with my hormone level test results.

"They", of course, being the nurse, or office assistant. I'm not sure which. "They", of course, not being the Dr. "They", of course, not knowing all of the answers to the questions I'd ask.

They called me at work, which really means they called when I didn't have the presence of mind or time or bravery to ask everything I wanted to.

They said that it came back at 6,000 then mumbled a bunch of other stuff that I can't remember because I was busy reacting to the 6,000 number. "Wait. Is that good? Or bad? We were hoping for low, he said 500 at some point during the discussion. 6,000 is definitely not as low as 500. He said it maxes out at 100,000. 6,000 is definitely NOT has high as 100,000. He also said the number 10-20,000, but I don't remember what he said about those numbers! Were those good or bad? Is 6,000 OK? Did she just say miscarriage? Heartbeat? Hey wait! What'd I miss?!?!?!"

After review the "conversation" 20 gajillion times in my head in the past 20 minutes, I think she said that at those levels they should be able to see/hear the heartbeat, so if I start to bleed or miscarry not to panic just to call them. Like it's no big deal. Then she said he'd still like me to come in for another ultrasound next week so we verified my appointment for Wednesday morning.

I thought that getting the results would let me breath a huge sigh of relief, or give me cause for freaking out.  Not leave me just as confused as before.

Would you believe that when you google the number '6,000' with the words 'pregnancy' and 'hormones' you don't get ANYTHING helpful at all? Seriously.

Fortunately Josh found his "everything is fine" button and pushed it. Hard. He's not concerned. At all. Which is good, because really, one of us needs to be OK.