Jobs

So, the job hunt has been.....less than fruitful up until today....

Before we went on the cruise I applied for this job at the church that was amazing. I went to the interview and felt really good about the job, and to be honest I really got my heart set on it. It was (like so many other) the PERFECT job for me and I knew it was going to work out. We'll call this the "upstairs job" because it's upstairs at the Church Office Building.

So, when I got the "we don't want you" e-mail I was shocked, hurt, embarrassed, and kindof offended. But, that's life, and I tried really hard to do the "if this doesn't work out, something else will" attitude, but really I was just sad.

Being the non-emotional girl I am, I only cried for like an hour or two about how "nobody loves me, I'm not good at anything, not only can I not get a job, but I can't have a baby either, etc." Then I applied for another job at the church. I had an interview on Monday, and it went very well. I had a 2nd interview yesterday which also went really well, they said they hoped to make a decision by early next week and they'd let me know either way.

Today I got a call from the guy who interviewed me for the upstairs job. The ones who rejected me earlier. He asked if I had another phone number for my bishop because they were really hoping to talk with him today. So, I'm assuming they changed their minds about me for whatever reason, and I'm now being considered for the position again (or still....who knows). Unfortunately I only know his home number which means they won't hear from him until Monday at the very earliest.

Then I got a call from the Downstairs people, they'd like me to call them back as quickly as possible. Which I really think means that they are going to offer it to me. (Otherwise they would have just left me a message saying they'd chosen the other candidate.)

Here's the problem: if I turn down the Downstairs job (which is a perfectly good job, with people who seem really nice) and then the Upstairs people reject me (again) then I'll feel stupid for not jumping at the opportunity. But, if I accept the Downstairs job, and then the Upstairs people offer me a position, I'll be really sad that I didn't hold out for a better position.

And if the Upstairs people weren't really seriously considering me, why on earth would they call me back again? "Just wanted to call to remind you we didn't really like you. And we'd like to talk with your Bishop about all the reasons we didn't choose you, so do you have his phone number? They must be very seriously considering me or they wouldn't have said anything! So, I'll need to talk to the Downstairs people on Monday and say something to them.....the question is - what do I say?

As a side note, I need to point out that although this is a dilemma, it's one I'm happy to have. I just hope I make the right choice and don't wind up regretting anything. I am just thankful to have someone remotely interested in hiring me.