First day back at work

Today I went back to work.

I was nervous about a lot of things.

They've had hardware and software upgrades since I left.

How was I supposed to train my replacement on something I've never seen before anyway?

I had to wear nylons. It's been 3 months. What if I forgot how? What if they got a big fat run in them? What if I remembered how bad I hate them? What if I just refused, would they fire me?

I had to talk to/entertain new person all day long. What if it turns out I didn't do anything and I couldn't keep her busy for a full day? And now we just sit here talking to people because it's so much fun.

Josh was home with my baby. I was not worried Josh wouldn't care for him well. He would. Thus the fear.

What if I came home and Josh had done laundry, dishes, taken care of the child who napped and ate exactly as he should? What if they were both dressed in real clothes and had their hair done. What if neither of them smelled like spit up and the smell of delicious dinner was wafting through the house when I walked through the door? What if Josh is a better mom than me?

I don't wanna be shown up by my husband who already wonders what I do all day......and unfortunately that's a very real possibility.